Friday, September 5, 2008

To post, or not to post....


The hurt is very fresh. This morning I went to the hospital - for a routine OB appt. and learned that the baby is no longer alive inside of me. I know I am only 11 weeks along, but the pain is very real. A while back a friends blog led me to a fellow blogger and VERY special lady named Angie : you can get to her blog by clicking http://audreycaroline.blogspot.com/ (she is also in my sidebar under Bring the rain). What an amazing story she has to share. Bring a box of tissues.

I KNOW God led me to this site those months back, now. We did have a scare several weeks ago already with the baby, but after several ultrasounds there was hope, and peace. Today, there was no concern for if the baby was ok ... until the doctor quickly turned the screen away and began searching for a heartbeat. Then he turned on the colors that show heat, movement anything. And nothing. So my heart is very heavy. Frank and I are hurting. The kids are hurting. And tonight while that little life is still inside me, it is not alive. Now we wait for God to take this little person or til Monday when I reconsult the doctor.

Please pray for us this weekend, and in the coming weeks. That God will mend the holes in our hearts.
I havn't figured out how to post a video or a song quite yet. But I can leave you the words to a song by Mercy Me that I have listening to throughout the day.





Bring The Rain Lyrics
Artist(Band):MercyMe


I can count a million times
People asking me how I
Can praise You with all that
I've gone through
The question just amazes me
Can circumstances possibly
Change who I forever am in You

Bring me joy, bring me peace
Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings
You glory And I know there'll
be days When this life brings me pain
But if that's what it takes to
praise You Jesus, bring the rai

Maybe since my life was changed
Long before these rainy days
It's never really ever crossed my mind
To turn my back on you, oh Lord
My only shelter from the storm
But instead I draw closer through these times
So I pray

Bring me joy, bring me peace
Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings
You glory And I know there'll
be days When this life brings me pain
But if that's what it takes to
praise You Jesus, bring the rain

I am yours regardless of the clouds that may
loom above because you are much greater than
my pain you who made a way for me suffering
your destiny so tell me whats a little rain

Holy, holy, holy
Holy, holy, holy
is the lord God almighty
is the lord God almighty
I'm forever singing

everybody singing
Holy holy holy
you are holy
you are holy

2 comments:

Mishel said...

Hey friend...

I'm so sorry to hear of the loss of your precious one. May the Lord continue to comfort you and the rest of your family.

And Angie's blog is one of my favorites too...

Hugs...

Lockwoods said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. We too have a little one waiting for us in heaven. We are so glad to know the God of all comfort and it is blessed knowing those precious children are in Jesus arms...He's taken the sting out of death! Yet I know it still hurts so much. You begin to love your child from the very start. You will be in my prayers.
love,
Jaynee