demons and angels

I believe right now at this very moment there is a spiritual battle for my dad's soul. He has still be heart hard to the Gospel, I think he knows in his head that Jesus is God, and has yet to accept Christ in his heart. That truely scares me.

He keeps telling me about a dream he keeps having. My mom says its " just the medication talking" but what if it is not? He says he is in a stone jail chained against the walls, bound in chains both his hand and his feet, and these "things" that he describes at this point sound an awful lot like demons are on each side of him, laughing at him, mocking him and then he says each time as they are about to kill him he wakes up.

a coincidence? the drugs? maybe.

but honestly I think he is so weak, and he is surrounded by so many of your prayers that there could very well be demons by him torturing his unquiet mind. He is not open to hearing the Gospel from me. They are at a point where the cancer is progressing much faster than they anticipated, he may have had a heart attack last weekend- but on Tues they didnt think he would make it through the day. but he did.

but there was something about tuesday that WAS different. On Tuesday a pastor I had spoken with stopped by and prayed for him. And everyone else is saying that after he came, things started to improve but their reasoning is that it was because by then he knew I was coming and a guy that is like a son to him was on the way too. I dont think that had anything to do with it. I think for just a moment, on a day when he should not have breathed for another 5 hours - the bondage of the enemy was broken for just a few minutes because of your prayers.

My dad asked me to stay with him last night, so I have slept at the hospital tonight. He said that once I came and while I am there his "dreams don't come back" and he can sleep. A coincidence? I don't think that whatever thing he is battling can stand in the prescence of any true believer in Christ and that because God has allowed me to come and I am standing in the gap in prayer for my dad that somehow, someway those creatures in his dreams flee in the presence of the light of Christ. yesterday afternoon while I was gone the pastor had also come to visit and dad shared that those visions were gone while he was there too, but it felt like at all other times that they were still there holding him down in chains.

keep praying. There is an enemy and he is very real. In the quiet you can almost feel the spiritual warfare surrounding him, but I am still here praying for his salvation. Please join me and keep praying!

By the way, since Tues he has had a remarkable turnaround and while he is still very sick he is eating again and has gained some limited movemnet in his legs again. The doctor said he could be here another few weeks or even a few months with how much better he is doing. I think God has given him one more chance to come to HIM. Just because God is that good. Salvation is a gift- pray my dad accepts it.

travelling

heading off to NC, unsure how soon I will be able to post again. follow me on facebook for updates. pray for frank and the kids while I leave them here-
my dad is dying. his hear is only working at 20% capacity. pray for him.

My Dad

about 2 weeks ago I got a call from my mom.

"jen, your dad has lung cancer"

a million questions swirled in my head...
what stage?
should i go to NC?
how long til I should travel?
has mom applied for his disability?

so I went into marine corps wife mode and starting finding the answers...

went online looked up his symptoms and determined approx the stage of his cancer

got mom and appointment with social security

found the numbers to the nurses at the hospital

got all of dad's doctor's numbers

talked to his lung cancer doctor...



that one was the real eye opener:

he said he would be surprised if my dad lasted another 10 weeks.

wow.

and that he is "gravely ill"

Saturday he went home after a week long stay at the hospital, only to be returned to the hospital early Sunday morning after having a mild heart attack. tomorrow they will decide if a bronchoscopy is safe... and while a dangerous procedure- it is further complicated by the heart attack from last night and the fact that my dad has pneumonia.

I need to go to North Carolina.

pray that my dad finds salvation before it is too late.

Happy Father's Day

Our Father's Day in photos...

I need to share the happy times today. I will post an update about my dad's situation soon. please just pray for him to find Jesus before it is too late.

another storm blowing in

I am not supposed to know. so for what I am not supposed to know, there is a fierce storm blowing into my life. pray for me, my family and mostly for my dad.
he won't tell me what is going on. and until he does I will praise God in the storm...
its the only way I can deal with it all from 3000 miles away

Swimming with the seals

for me. tonight, this song says it all.