Sometimes i wish i could just put a lid on my emotions. I have talked here before about how i dislike the desert .... and I realize I am called ...as a believer in Christ....to be content in whatever season I am in.
But I remember so vividly sobbing each time I left Oceanside. Each trip *home* to the desert... just guttural sobs as I drove to my new home. My place to " be content".
There are still days like that for me here. And sometimes it would be nice not to feel.
I miss my church there.
I miss an amazing group of girls there.
I miss the smell of the salty air& the ocean breeze.
And as I close my eyes on another day here in the desert I want to continue to choose to be content....but then why can't I stop these tears?