Wednesday, October 22, 2008

A Humble Thank You

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So many of you have email and even a few commented because of the the comment I left at Bring the Rain.... and I just wanted to say thank you. Thank each and every one of you for sharing your stories with me and for praying for us- sharing again with me the hope we have in Christ. When I got online this morning I was humbled beyond measure at all the people that had stopped by my blog, and took the time to email, leave a comment and even those that didn't. I never imagined in my blogging so many would care.

I want to share with you that we are doing better. We have re-plugged in to a local church. We attended there for about a year- we have been welcomed back with open arms and loving hearts. God will heal all our wounds that have been there recently God will heal in His time. We are in His care. Ultimately this was His child, on loan to us- we will meet this little one when we step into Glory. And until then the little one is safe in the arms of Jesus. I have only one photo of the little miracle, taken probably days before we lost him or her.

We are back to homeschooling full time again. Most of September was half days. I just didn't have the strength to do it all. I bled for over 2 weeks, had 2 emergency trips to the ER complete with 5 bags of fluid (grand total) , paperwork was drawn up for a transfusion but one never came to pass. I know there was a time where Frank was concerned he was losing me too- it was a frightening time for us. Arianna is back to a volunteer schedule once a week, Micah just began his violin lessons yesterday and we are busy.

Frank and I are doing better as well. That initial reaction to him was frightening to me. We are working diligently at not pushing each other away. In fact we made a faith choice to continue to trust God for our family size and needs despite the miscarriage. I know I am still scared, about losing another, but I know God is bigger than my fear.

Life goes on out here in the middle of nowhere, a Marine goes back to work, we fall back into school and feeding horses and day to day chores- and we thank you. each of you. for all your kind words and reminders in Scripture. God Bless you.

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jennifer

6 comments:

La Familia Garcia said...

Thanks for posting the update! God is in control and sometimes takes us through rough times to get us to someplace better...like Joseph!

Dani said...

I like others I see. Found your blog through Angies. :) I too have recently been through a church Split. It was so discouraging at times. Since then we have called a new pastor and things are just going awesome! I will be praying for ya'll and your family! My mom home schooled me and my siblings. I just graduated in May. I LOVED it! :) Newaz...just wanted to say HI!
~Dani

CIRCLE OF LIFE said...

HELLO I TOO READ YOU THROUGH ANGIES BLOG AND IAM SO TERRIBLE SORRY, WHAT HAPPENED WITH YOUR CHURCH? EXCATLY THEY ASKED YOU TO LEAVE , ANGIE SURE IS A PERSON OF CHARACTER THAT CAN GUIDE YOU THROUGH , HOWEVER YOU NEED TO KEEP THE FAITH, YES YOU MAY BE MAD NOW THAT YOUR GOD OUR GOD IS CHANGING YOUR PLAN BUT IT WAS NOT MENT TO BE IN HIS PLANS AND ALL OF OUR FATHERS PLANS A BIGGER AND BETTER,I DO SEE GREATER THINGS IN YOU AND YOIR FAMILY TODAY. IT MAY BE HARD BUT YOUR HUSBAND MUST BE HURTING JUST AS MUCH AS YOU PUSING HIM AWAY IS NOT THE ANSWER, FIND A BETTER CHURCH, GIVE ME A CITY AND ILL RESEARCH FOR YOU, HELP YOU GET CONNECTED THEY HAVE GIEF CLASSES THAT CAN HELP YOU COPE WITH THE STRESS AND THE DAILY STAIN.I AM PRAYING FOR YOU AND THAT YOU CAN REST PEACEFULLY YOUR BABY IS LOOKING OVER YOU AND SAYING HOW AMAZING YOU ARE.THAT YOU AR3EA AWESOME CARING MOMMY. YOU HAVE 5 OTHERS LIVES THAT THINK YOU ARE AMAZING AND A HUSBAND THAT THINKS YOU ARE AMAZING YES TIME HEALS WOUNDS YOU NEED TIME TO SOAK IN WHAT JUST HAPPENED.THE DAYS WILL GET EASIER AND YOU WILL BE ABLE TO PUT THE HURT IN A DIFFERENT SPOT , YOU NEED TO FOCAS ON YOU AND YOUR WONDERFUL FAMILY STICKTOGETHER AS A TEAM .

Jenny said...

Followed you here from Angie's blog. I am so so terribly sorry about your loss. I have said a prayer for you. Your letter broke my heart.

Hugs for you today.

Jenny

Nancy M. said...

I just came across your sweet blog through "bring the rain". What a beautiful heart full of love and full of pain. I thank you for your openness to others!
I cant imagine you and your families
pain but I too agree God can heal the brokenhearted and has a greater purpose that we could ever know (through it all). God bless you and your family. I whispered a prayer for
you all tonight.-a Christian friend

Kelly said...

I read your post on Angie's blog, and just wanted to let you know that I am so sorry for your loss and we are praying God's continued comfort as He carries you and your family through this time. My family has walked the journey of loss, and we have experienced the daily sufficient grace from our Heavenly Father as He has made beauty from the ashes in our lives. God has given us a ministry for families who have lost a baby to miscarriage, stillbirth, or infant death. You can read the story of our Faith, Grace, and Thomas listed in the opening paragraph of our blog.
http://sufficientgrace-kelly.blogspot.com

In His Grace,
Kelly Gerken