I honestly don't know what to blog about. This move has been a struggle for me.
On many levels.
but there is so much in the fine lines that I can't talk about.
This transition into "civilian life" is hard. Being a "Marine wife" has, to a degree defined me for the last 18 years.
This move has been not as it seemed it would turn out. In that alone there have been challenges.
The choices my husband has chosen for our family are not what I ever thought they would be when he retired from the USMC. But if I blog about those I need to prayerfully do it in a way where I talk about it openly without dishonoring my husbands choices.
& then I consider blogging.
and I think about my dear friends that are going through something .. and I feel like if I blog about the rough times on my blog.. well.. to be honest they aren't so rough at all.
which kind of put things in perspective and I stay silent.
I am trying to be content in what I have this season.
it's not easy.
and as this new season in our life launches.
I am afraid.
and I sit and re-read scripture that tells me not to be afraid.
and I fell like I don't belong. anywhere.
and I can't really blog about that ... can I?
& we are rebuilding a micro ranch... I * could blog about that* but what is there to say.
and having a new baby... yep.. topics without time.
and I am finding , in this season, I am all of a sudden worried about saying the wrong thing and offending someone.
homeschooling... yep there is yet another topic that I honestly dont think anyone wants to hear from me about.
so pray for me. that I cold find my writing mojo.
I do miss it. But I just don't know what to say or how to say it. & what I am "struggling" with is nothing compared to others so I am having a hard time ... well blogging... about the change.